well this is just like a mid term relfection report on life the universe and everythign in between. i could just write 42 and be done with it but nah... i just been looking back at my life reflecting. time to reflect is something i get to do since we do shit in the army.. not tt i have ltos of time to slack... which i dun... not to mention i'm damn shag and tired everyday.. and night...
so anyhow.. not sure wat to say or do. typing out my life story just dosent seem to flow out as easily as it used to be. but i shell touch on teh topic closest to me. love. as we jolly well know i've been single. and well at times it just hits me like lemon rubbed into a wound with a little salt. and the urge to "cure" it rages like the perfect storm. i suspect i'm a little desperate. alittle over little... perhaps even to the point of being frivalious which isnt very good... i dun want to run around being a heart breaker or to jump on too many differnt love boats too fast. but yeah there is a desire to be the prince charming to a princess somewhere. a very strong desire lol.
hmmm. typing thigns out saying it in my head helps me to see things clearer. and i know my social circle is like shrinking or has shrunk.. claire has left for austriallia for her studies. she says she knows a girl whos my type but she got no pics.. -_- selfish lorzxc. lol. and darius supposed to be enlisting today but has been quarrantined for flu eversince coming back from austrillia so hes enlisting on monday. so my social circle has more or less evaporated to a few drops of friendship.
when i look back at my life. or at this blog anyway. i see somebody who loved and was loved deeply. who gave his all to the her in his life. and when i ended each time there is a certain change in my life. not only the fact tt i have becomed single but a change in mindset? like differnt stages of my life? they all were great and unique. i learned not to compare any of them. i learned tt no matter wat has been said they all are deeply cherished. i do wish all of them the best in their lives. and i still care or want to know how they fare. thanks for moulding my life.
i need to channel my love. this energy within me. this... passion. its so strong and it burns deep within my body. like a volcano. God has been faithful. and i just want to learn to appreaciate my life more fully.
come on guys.. set me up XD just kidding. but it would be nice to make friends.
