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    Friday, June 26, 2009

    dun worry i'm fine (:
    getting used to my current lifestyle.
    hoping to find someone new in my life.



    love kills slowly 10:31 pm

    Sunday, June 14, 2009

    the worst part of being disappointed is being disappointed by your friends. my free time is so restricted as it is. and yet they waste my time. yet they disappoint me. they dunno how it feels to have a timer to your life. your lifestyle. every moment anything you do. you feel that time is slipping past your fingertips. 1726. you know what tt time tells me. it tells me that i have to book in soon. cause i live so fucking far. its really depressing. friends always expect you to do thigns for them. to be there for them when they need you. but when i need them or when i expect them for certain things they disappoint.
    family. the most important thing to me yet i cant seem to show my appreaciation. my love for my parents. they put in the effort for me. but i just yell at them. i apologise. but if i dun shout at them in the first place i wont need to apologise. i love them so. but i disappoint them. a vicious cycle. from me to the ppl around me and back. who can i blame but myself. but how do i be perfect. its neigh impossible. but good God. help me. i have drifted. i am drifting. from your real love. from the world's love. im just falling into anger and frustration. turning to alochol is not the way to go. yet i continue. i need to heal.



    love kills slowly 5:25 pm

    Sunday, June 07, 2009

    its been a while since i last blogged. i just didnt have the motivation too. i had alot of things weighing down my mind and heart. and i just dont know what to do with it. honestly i've been feeling damn low. what with all the booking in.. and i do feel lonely. its kind of a drag at times. life isnt really all rainbows and butterflys atm. army isnt that bad.. but its not good either. i dread sundays. hate that my civillian life would come crumbling down in a few more hours. and i have to reset my life into the army. maybe as time passes it'll get easier to bear. maybe if i had someone to share with it would be better. i wonder if what i really need is a girlfriend. perhaps a companion, or a friend is what i really need. but the fact that i keep thinking i'm lonely is whats the problem. if i didnt have such a mentality, if i was alittle more optimistic.. i proably wont be feelign this way. but i guess i'm not and it is a little depressing. i keep wanting to induldge in alcoholism and smoking. but i know its wrong. but whats holding me back is a thin piece of my morals and values. and thats wats left holding me together. i hope i can deal with my situation better. and perhaps win a heart along the way.



    love kills slowly 5:43 pm