Barry's space!

Sunday, February 18, 2007

I'm going to get this right

Cheryl i'm going to get this right.
i'm going to be positive. i'm not going to say i'm sorry.
i'm not going to tell you i love you.
i'm going to be super happy. and than ask you to be mine one more time.
this will work. trust me..
GUYS I NEED UR HELP!!!
REMIND ME TO BE HAPPY!!!
((:

love kills slowly 10:39 pm

Saturday, February 17, 2007

New Years Eve.

a new year, a new day, a new me.
well i have to move on some day.. why not today.. its fun wallowing in selfpity. but i gotta get out of it someday.. (: so yes i will do it today. i'm fine. super fine! (: getting out will hurt but well all good things come with sacrifice and pain and suffering and all the bad little things.. but the rewards will be great (: i dun really know.. but i can guess.. it better be good.. growls. so i hope all of you have a happy chinese new year.. and cheryl please take care of yourself! ^^ so i've decided to get on with life. face the facts. and try and enjoy all the food. i seriously think i'm alright. well for the moment anyway. i feel great. i dont think i feel empty. but you never know these things. but i'll do my best, not to pretend to be happy.. but to be happy. sigh~ (: its time to stop asking questions. its time to be a man. its time to just laugh at everything and say its an experience to remember. i enjoyed the journey. i enjoyed the moments. i enjoyed everything. i hope to see some improvement in me.. ^^

love kills slowly 9:55 pm

Friday, February 16, 2007

Wake up Barry..

its over. sigh. i'm not angry with her. really.
theres no reason why i should be.. this journey i had with her.. was so enriching. it refreshed my soul in a sense.. cheryl thank you for everything. i'll always remember you as my soulmate and my best friend. and all our happy moments will never be erased from this heart. cause they were so much. this experience i had with you was everything and more. i really dont know wat to write. i usually write with my emotions and my heart. but right now i really dont know wat to write. i just want you to remember that i'll be here for you too. even though if you feel that u need to take care of me. i want u to know that u can still lie on my shoulder. maybe not now for u.. but yes. please let me stand by you too. i really dunno wat else to write anymore. thank you for everything.
i want u to know that its not your fault. and nobody should ever blame u for wat happened. its not only your fault. i did a few dumb stuff too. please stop thinking shes the one at fault. please.

love kills slowly 7:34 pm

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Thank you for all that you've done.

wish i could have given you much more. i love you. i really did..
and you will be my only soulmate ever.. thank you for everything cheryl.

love kills slowly 8:45 pm

Friday, February 09, 2007

If u have to cry. here's my shoulder

If the hero never comes to you
If you need someone you're feeling blue
If you're away from love and you're alone
If you call your friends and nobody's home
You can run away but you can't hide
Through a storm and through a lonely night
Then I show you there's a destiny
The best things in life
They're free

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

If your sky is grey oh let me know
There's a place in heaven where we'll go
If heaven is a million years away
Oh just call me and I make your day
When the nights are getting cold and blue
When the days are getting hard for you
I will always stay here by your side
I promise you I'll never hide

But if you wanna cry
Cry on my shoulder
If you need someone who cares for you
If you're feeling sad your heart gets colder
Yes I show you what real love can do

What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do
What real love can do
What love can do

love kills slowly 8:24 pm

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

will u?

will you still love me after this?

love kills slowly 9:58 pm

My dear

ey darling.. how are you? hope you're feeling better ya? dear exam finishing soon ok. KEEP IT UP ^^! well before u know it u'll be back in my arms again la dear. so dun be stressed ok? dunch worriex worz. lol. anyway valentines is round the corner dear. dun get me a jacket leh.. wau lau. i oso dun use them much. so dun buy tt ok (: good girl. aiya i wished u'll call me right now.. i'm sooo bored.. dunch wanna studie... ): anyway good luck!

love kills slowly 8:38 pm

MINE

shes mine.. (model girlfriend) LOL. haha

love kills slowly 8:33 pm

Monday, February 05, 2007

omg fat fat is me..
LOOK AT THE CUBBY CHEEKS.. omg double chin coming out... DEARRR HOWWWWW!?!!!!

LAST TIME NO CHUBBY CHEEKS LEH

love kills slowly 9:04 pm

Your oh so beautiful eyes

ya this post is dedicated to ur eyes.. LOL.
who ask u.. ask me what i see in them. ok lets begin.
your eyes.. they are as dark as night whenever i look deep into them i get lost into those deep swirls. it draws me in. your eyes. that darkness of it tells me that there is so much more to u than wat i see. and draws me to find out more about you. whenever i just look at u. ya i look into ur eyes and i get lost.. tts why you say i look at u funnyily. den ur eyelids. another miricale. when i look at u at times i can see double eyelids. than whenever i come close dey just disappear. and i think they're like really cute lol. ur single eyelid is cute.. serious. lol. dear and ur lashes are thick. and sharp. or issit ur eyebrows.. either way something is sharp lol. but i love your eyes. it matches ur face perfectly! (:
fundamentally i love you.

love kills slowly 8:30 pm

OMG SOO COOOOLLLL

love kills slowly 8:27 pm

Sunday, February 04, 2007

Barry's long awaited post.

YES BARRY I'm blogging because you want me too. Or rather you said I owed you one which I dont really remember but that's not the point. I'll blog anyway.

THANK YOU VERY MUCH for hearing me out these few days. I know I owe you a big hug for being so understanding and manly about everything that's happening so far. Thank you for your chocolates and thank you for tucking me in every night. Enough thank you's.

Please do well or try YOUR VERY BEST for common test next week alright. It's really important. I mean, its a chance to see how much you've learnt and there is absolutely NO excuse for you not to do well apart from laziness, SERIOUSLY. Hey, you've gotten BEST SPEAKER in debate, how can you not do well in exams? *sniggers

Anyway, you're busy with your church's AMAZING RACE so i guess you can read this tonight.
You know in Chong Pang, which is very near my house has the spirit of Chinese New Year already?
Its so amazing because only this place gives me the chinese new year atmosphere. SERIOUS. All the red stuff hanging around and cheesy music really ups the CNY factor. Should go there sometime, its prolly better that CHINATOWN. And every shopkeeper wishes prosperity to every customer! How cool is that?

Yesterday we had just started the whole conversation going when suddenly you had to sleep because you were tired right? Something like that. Anyway, so yeah, I began eating very little since I met you. It really started from SLE camp, where the food really sucked and I felt better living on air. Then after I went to Domus and had this weird after-alcohol effect, I was too infactuated with you and started thriving on LOVE. Till now, I'm still thriving on love, i think.
It's not that you made me lose my appetite but honestly I feel better now. Its better than throwing up like what i used to feel right? So yeah, don't worry about me.

I heard you're going to go for BLOOD DONATION this year. ARE YOU BLUDDY SERIOUS?
Can you tell me how to overcome the fear of needles? I FAINT when i'm about to have an injection. That's why I come up with LOTS OF EXCUSES when I'm supposed to go for medical check-ups. But the reason why you're going is because you can SKIP classes right? DAMN, I knew it. I'm so not going to see the nurses take your blood. I teared last year when I saw Ali lying there helplessly with blood continously being drawn out. I know they dont take alot of blood but it sucks ok? How you people can be so calm about it, this i can never understand.

Oh, and just to tell you, weijie's going for talent-time. I nearly fell over giggling when he told me to help him choose a right song. He can sing yes, but he's just so shy. HAHA, i'm so eager to see how he'll be performing.

Anyway, feb is our 3rd month. Time really flies. I felt like SLE camp was just last week! Cheers to both of us!

PS: this is a long post.

love kills slowly 1:16 pm

Saturday, February 03, 2007

chocolates and love mix

Dear hope you liked your chocolates. <3

love kills slowly 2:40 pm

How do i live without you

Dear.. i'm sorry. i said i was studying. but i cannot. i know its a weakness on my part. but i really cant find the discipline to study. my mind is not here. i know it'll make you so happy to know i have been studying. but i just cannot find that urge to. sorry if i gave you stress before. i wont be so demanding anymore. (: dear this is not an apology post for something i did. its just that i feel kinda emo. i'm not affected by not being able to see you today. serious! i just need to let out some stress. from god knows what than i'll be back to studying. cheryl i miss you alot. so close yet so far. you're in tampines arent you. sigh. anyway thank you for everything you've given me sweetiepie. thank you for telling me how important to you. sigh. i feel so lost without you. common test is next week dear. please please do well. make me proud. i really should study. than i can show my parents that you are a blessing to me. that you will make me a better person and you already have. ok i have to study. i have to. right now. i love you cheryl. <3. i know i'm not supposed to say it so much but.. ya... valentines is round the corner. i havent bought the stuff i need. i'm glad i got you. you give me strength. encourage me laopo... i need encouragement now.. i miss you. but i'll be seeing you soon (: so i'm not sad. and dont worry i know we will have lots of time together in the future. i just gotta have some patience. thank you for being mine. lol.. my first valentine with a loved one. (: our third month together is round the corner. we still got a long way to go.. lol. dear. tell me you need me one more time. kisses. study hard for exams. darl.. dont be stressed about anything; friends, family, positions in school, me.. dont be stress about all this. cause you know through it all i'll be standing next to you. fighting the good fight. and in the end we'll grow old together. i love you.