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Tuesday, November 28, 2006

Tell me where it hurts.

Why is that sad look in your eyes
Why are you crying?
Tell me now, tell me now
Tell me, why you're feeling this way
I hate to see you so down, oh baby
Is it your heart
Oh, that's breaking all in pieces
Making you cry
Making you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do
Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away
Where are all those tears coming from
Why are they falling?
somebody, somebody, somebody left your heart in the cold
You just need somebody to hold on, baby
Give me a chance
To put back all the pieces
Taking your broken heart
Make it just like new
There's so many things that I can do
Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I'll love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away
Is it your heart
Oh, that's breakin' all in pieces
Making you cry
Making you feel blue
Is there anything that I can do
Why don't you tell me where it hurts now, baby
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me baby
Tell me, tell me, tell me, tell me
And I'll do my best to make it better
Yes, I'll do my best to make the tears all go away
Just tell me where it hurts
Now, tell me
And I love you with a love so tender
Oh, and if you let me stay
I'll love all of the hurt away

love kills slowly 4:17 pm

Monday, November 20, 2006

The story so far..

we went out on friday after rugby.
well i went to bugis to meet her.. than i knew i had to get something for her. and so i started looking high and low for the stupid florist.. little did i know.. BUGIS IS A BAD PLACE TO PREPARE FOR A DATE... not one florist could be found lor...
so i got her this flower. folded using those foam like paper or something.
than i hide it behind my arm. oh and i told her i was sorry i couldnt get her flowers.. =p
so when i met her. i suddenly sprang out this flower for her la. wah her face... can tell she very happy. even though like no reaction.. than after tt we went to walk around abit with her elder sister and her boyfriend; i.e. da jie and raymond.
than go take neoprint lor... wah super pai seh...
after that right her da jie treat us billy bombers leh.. wahhh soo pai seh lor..
first time go out nia. treat me this type of things.. next time will be my turn. than after a good dinner. we went to the arcade. turns out her da jie play arcade de lor.. damn pro summore. but we got no chance la.. soo many pros there.
got this boy play house of the dead 4.. i think he use cheat or sumthing.. no matter how many times he tio damage hor.. his life never once go down.. damn cheater la..
so we change like dunno how much money into dollar coins than never even use one..
and SHE BOUGHT ME A WALLET! so happy lor.. MYUK one.. its pronounced my uk rite? she says its muke. like milk like tt lol.

END dAY 1

Saturday. we didnt plan to go out at all. cause i got rugby match la... than we talk talk. than stumbled upon the idea. so i went parkway parade to meet her from my grands house. lucky i slept in the aft noon. went parkway rite.. damn lousy lor PP. i check the directory for coffee bean lor. than DUN HAVE LEH.. damn irritating. so i met her at MPH. den mr smart suprised her again with a lollypop this time. cause if everytime give flower she'll cannot take it one. ^^
than we went to coffee bean talk talk with her sister and her friend. dunno how to spell her name..sorry!! so i bought the drinks than hor.. zz they pay me back.. or at least her friend did. the other two i say cannot cause they treat me liao so this time must treat them back. than Cheryl got for me Ice Coffee late. i think tts the name.. than she go add other stuff to it. than WAH TASTES SOO DAMN GOOOD. than we sat there talk alot of shit lol. damn funny. watch some homemade videos of cheryl embarrsing her self again and again. LOL. still love you la.. dont worry. aft tt we went to a CD shop. than her sister got a few albums. than we go sit in her car. cause her sister's friend's child 1 year old.
In the car i took a nap first la.. damn tired. but it was super comfortable. wont tell you why. but cheryl knows. =p when we reach there we stayed in the car like for half and hour while her sister go up. talk sumore.. laugh like anything. it was than i knew she could lick her own nose. lol. cheat. crazy damn long tongue. after that we squezzed in the car than go eat a quick meal at a hawker centre. than GO KTV. OMG DAMN FUNNN. Cheryl Sings fantastically. like she really got a powerful voice. like super pwer la.. aft tt around 1+ i took a cab home while they continued in singing.

END dAY 2

Sunday even more unexpected.
all i planned was to go church. eat. help out with the decorating of the church for the childrens camp than go home watch sum of all fears. BUT in the end i went to her house. she wanted to cook for me dinner. she did help out. and she made me sushi. haha. her sister good cook sia. than i help out alittle. oh ya. i bought a box of buns for her family.. wanted to buy somehting better but totally not prepared at all lor...zz
after dinner we play dai di. than lol. turns out i her good luck charm. and her sisters bad luck charm LOL. it seems b4 i came cheryl was losing like mad. than i come she win alot lol.
but i king. won 3 times the rest like 2 tiems i think. first round i won =p power. she helped me massaged my back and my leg lor.. soo happy. nobody ever did tt for me before. use the medicated oil and help me rub.. Thanks Deer. feel soo much better liao. so we settled on the sofa. and chilled. than lol. we watch incredible tales.. wah at first damn scary. the lady under the bed.. HER EYES.. omg.. arrrr. she got damn scared. than hor.. we sitting there than dunno what i do. than she say WHO YOUR GIRLFRIEND... than i turned around my face in front of hers and asked her. dont want be my girlfriend ar. than she shake her head lol. than i ask again. and again. lol. she kept shaking than she gave up and say. you know what ppl want to say you still ask. than i kissed her.
wahhhhh fireworks..
shortly after that i went home lor.

END dAY 3

now i miss her loads...
call me soon darl.

love kills slowly 1:44 pm

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Greatest story told.

My dear, why am I the one blogging? But anyway, we didnt really talk at night, plus with all your commitments, you'll be dead by now if you talked to me at night.

Before I continue, let's just review our stuff? We met at a camp and started off with an unusual introduction. Somehow, you're sending wrong signals to me but you enjoyed doing that.
Then it was MSN and a phone call you made that was meant to be a joke. Then it took off from there. I plucked up courage to tell you that I'm falling for you. And you said " What makes you think I'm not falling for you?" From there we created our own fairytale.

Until now, we're still inside our fairytale.

I can still feel the moment when we first hugged. It was like no one else was around.
We did simple stuff but it felt so romantic. We taught each other stuff and it just felt good.
We just had this pure relationship.

This is our greatest story told isnt it?

>>Reply<<

cheryl thanks for everything dear. i miss you already.. even though we just saw each other less than 12 hours ago.
but everyday when i wake up. every thing seems right. it feels like i dun have a care for the world at all. Nth at all.
cause the first thing i hear when i wake up is your voice.. that voice. its like wind chimes swinging in the wind. a gentle wave carrasing the shore. the sound of the wind flowing pass my ears.
it just makes everything better. and my day starts off right! (:
for all this i thank you.

love kills slowly 1:47 pm

Thursday, November 16, 2006

A stranger leaves her words.

Barry, this blog is full of hurt, disappointment and despair. It may not be simple to do a complete turnaround now but it's ok. Who said you have to do a complete turnaround?
I'd like to address a few things. Firstly, I DO NOT think i'm a rebound whatever you call it.
Simply because I don't feel it. As long I don't feel it, why should you? I know that everytime you sound emo and say you wanna give me 200%, you really wanna do it but somehow you don't feel confident enough. Let me tell you now. You have given me enough, more than enough actually. I don't ask for alot so there's no reason for you to think you havent given me enough.
You've been thanking me since day 1, but actually I told you you're worth it. You must always remember this.. You're one special person to me. Don't keep thinking that it is only me who plays a bigger part. Do you know I feel blessed in fact I can't believe you're mine. Cos, I have been facing failed crushes so many times it has become a norm. But not you. You lifted my hopes of finding THE ONE.

It has been a crazy ride but i'm enjoying every moment. You should too. Leave your hurt behind, hold on to me and just chill. Don't worry about when it ends. Who cares? I care about now. What we have now will lead to the future. Isn't it? Love paints a rosy picture for us.

However, I cannot rule out the fact that there'll be some unhappiness in it. There will be moments when we both are pissed off at each other. So what? Does it mean the love gets lesser? Love never divides, it only multiplies. So if we get pissed and try to work things out, we become stronger and more stable. As time passes, we'll face many obstacles but instead of fretting now, why don't we treasure what there is now, while there is nothing standing in our way.

Always remember, I liked you for being you. Not anyone else. I remember the first day you told me, "if there's anything about me you don't like, must tell me k?"
ask yourself, if there's anything I don't like about you, I wouldnt be saying all these. I never liked to change people. If i accept you, it means i've accepted your flaws as well. Right?
I've never been flowery in my words saying stuff like WO AI NI all over the place. I never believed in it. Love comes from the heart not the mouth. Saying it to someone makes them feel loved but even if you don't say it to me, I know it. You know why? Because I trust you.
Don't ask me why, I cant answer too. I just go with my gut feeling. I trust you to do your stuff, i trust you to be responsible. I hope that during your time with me, you'll learn to be a better man. A man your wife will be able to rely on, a man that upholds his family but most importantly a man who does things with an open mind and is able to lift his head up high when facing failure.
I'm not saying you MUST do that but you have to try. Let's start from now. There's no deadline for this, it'll follow you throughout your life.

I can't promise you we'll get married but I know for at least now, this isn't infactuation.

Don't be shy when you wanna emo to me. Just say whatever you want. If you're not being emo to me who else can you be emo too?
Tell me your insecurities, I'll reverse them.
Tell me your deepest thoughts, I'll debate with you.
Tell me you can't do certain stuff, I'll match yours.
Tell me where it hurts, I'll love all the hurt away.

Before you love others, love yourself first.

I'm here. I'm here to help you, to spoil you. Not to be a rebound girlfriend.
You're not my boyfriend, you're my soulmate.
Lets move away from the boyfriend/girlfriend thing.
We're soulmates.
It isnt important to me whether you asked anot. I'm serious.
It is important to me you throw your insecurities away.
I'm whatever you want. A teacher, a friend, a loved one.
Love me the way you want to, not the way I want to.
i wont tell you how to love, I'll tell you I love you.

With this, I end my thoughts.
`Deer.

love kills slowly 5:02 pm

yeah i met some new friends.
FOUND sum hu were new but felt like we knew each ohter for ten thousand years.
grins.
let u all noe next time..
but feel damn blessed.

love kills slowly 10:05 am

Saturday, November 11, 2006

ok. back from camp.
it was ok.
had lots of fun making new friends.
and interacting with old ones.
Lina u're super nice.
going to miss all the times we had :(
but nvm nxt yr will see ya everymorning.

well christmas is round the corner.
miss the songs.
hope this will be a memorable one.