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Friday, August 31, 2007

please help do ma survery.
rather long and teidous. so unless you're intellectually attuned..
please dun do it. ty

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love kills slowly 5:42 pm

Sunday, August 26, 2007

WootZ old com ish back!

love kills slowly 1:37 pm

Friday, August 24, 2007

My New Favourite song!
cause i want to make things work. right the wrong.
love is real, real is love.

When You're Gone lyrics by Avril Lavigne.

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd
need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
is made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
out here forever
I know we were
yeah, yeahhh

All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

love kills slowly 8:03 pm

Saturday, August 18, 2007

whooo! turns out my sister stole some of my old songs from my comp
and saved it to this com. so i found some of my old songs!
wahh got quite a bit of emo songs too!
haha. wahh.. damn emo sia..
hah.. ha. omg.. zz memories.. sighhh....

oh well.. sigh

love kills slowly 2:49 pm

Sunday, August 12, 2007

omg.. i'm going to stay back in sch every day till 8 to study. sighz
that roughly amounts to 3 hours aday.
than sat i'll be joining stannly and cass to study at nlb..
i hate studying at libs.. no nice worz.
jia lat arh.. i thinkk i die liao worz..

and its like if my this yr a lvl papers fail. i nxt yr cant retake them.. so i dunno how.
if i fail my h1 contrasting math subject.. wat will happen tome?
wat if chinese fail???!!!
wathat if my PW FAIL?!!! omfg..

cut my throat hang me upside down. pls dun let tt happen... omg omg omg
zomg. studies have nver been this much of a concern to me.. i jsut hope i remain this afraid.
den i can continueously zealously study.
omg i need no life!!!! i need to have NO LIFE!!!
with no life i can study non stop.
when i study non stop i can pass!!
omg i need to beable to study non stop.
come on barry pls start..

tomorrow..

sigh. ok so this national day week. i had a dose of trouble. lots of fun. and a bit of stress.
just nice.
so i was caught wearing red shoes on tuesday. so i told the teacher national day week.
he scold me sia. den want to bring me to dm.
HENG THE DM BZ. den he say find him after pe
so after PE i borrow my fren shoe. den he let me go.
so yah....
den wed nite went to

*-------censor-------*

stuff i cant tell u all. cause if parents ever find out. siao lol. its not tt bad la.
den go shauns house.
thursday from shauns place went to barn's place for korean hot pot.
damn nice. his parents good host. after tt went home round 12.
watch troy.

friday went to meet jocey at 1. had choc. met johnathan. took 1hr bus ride to RP
den wait for marie. saw deb deb there.
den we had dinner at the lobster restaruant. didnt order lobster.
so from there we went to NITE SAFARI again. damn cool.
went home round 12 i guess.
sat slack at home cant rmb do wat. lvled.
took forevr to lvl lor.. sian. zzz.

den sunday go church. den go meet claire dar eric to send steph off.
from there eric went home do proj. i left them go home slack. dey go ikea.
and now i'm here. i definitely played my fair share this holiday.
so i got no reason to use the computer to play anymore this coming week..

pls keep me motivated. fear works.
threat works. violence works too..
incentives defintely. but yah.. i think
ruthless violence works better.

i need to do well. if i dun pass the half of my a lvl papers this yr
i cant retake nxt yr..
i dnno why oso.. but tts the rule
so if i fail. i'm screwed. somebody hep meh...

help meh sumbodie!

study barry
barry study

love kills slowly 10:17 pm

Sunday, August 05, 2007

so recently i've been doing nonsencial posts about nothing. meaningless really. but yeah.... hmmm
well i need songs for 1.. i need to stop going on the computer. i need to study. tts for sure.
so lets do this.

Blog:
so i've been feeling depressed. low. yah.. emo basiacally. dun really know wats going on with me actually. just feel low. lonely. nobody seems to know what is the problem. so i'm quite lost really..
but i do try to keep a positive attitued. but its definitely not working. so i'm ok most of the time. but when night falls someitmes i really feel sad.. emo. sorry for myself. pity.. but i hate it. i really hate feeling sorry for myself.

you have no idea how much i hate self pity. the feeling that u feel dat everybody is against u. that ur life really sux comparede to other ppl. i dun like it.. feels so childish. and all. so when that happpens i just tell myself to get a grip. but yah i still go on feeling sorry for myself. about how my life could have been so much better. why do i keep thinking of stuffs like how i wish my parents would treat me better. or atleast wish for a better relationship with ppl. den when i'm down at nite. i thik of my freinds. or ppl who are around me at least. i dont know if i can call them friends. i have lots of aquaintances. but freinds? good friends? close friends? i dun think so. i dun call ppl to tell them my problems. i dun do that its just not my kind of thing.

so i end up keeping it in. i do want to talk to ppl. many ppl around me have encouraged me to start sharing my life. to start opening myself up to the ppl who are around me. cause even though i doubt it they do care for me.. but i just dont want to trouble them. i dun want to burden them with my probelsm. just weird. den when i think of telling someone my problems i just worry about their reactions. the way they will keep telling me things. and all. i dunno. not only that i worry about ppl when they listen too. keep quiet all the time. i dunno. i end up talking to myself. alot. way alot. everynight jsut talk to myself. and i guess i get too comfortable with that in a way. thats why i'm afraid of sharing with others.

someitmes i wish for many things. someimtes i wish nth happened. and most of the time i wished i had a normal life. somehow it feels like i lead a different life. 1 not everybody goes through. and when i write it out and all. its easier too see whats wrong. like how thats self pity again. sort of anyway. and its terrible. i just keep trying to lose myself day after day after day.
i go on the com for mindless escapism. most of the time i'm just staring at the screen. the com gives me little. but takes away from me everything. it destroys so much of my life. time i could have spent studying.

and i just spent the time saying how i'm wasting my time. sigh.. damn loser sia..
i guess i really am..

u know many times i think of being in lvoe. love being in love or jsut lvoe.. i dun mind having love around me. i really like it. some sort of sick obsession. lol.. than at times when i see couples i go aww. lol.. at times i jsut wish i didnt have to see it. though those times are long gone. but u never know. hahha.

i just wish i had someone somthing to care for. lol. help me sign a petition to get my paretns to buy me a cat! muahaha. ((:
i want a cat!!!!!! hahah. see ya.

love kills slowly 9:37 pm

Thursday, August 02, 2007

AWWWWWWWWW POSTT