Sunday, April 08, 2007
Reflections
well i havent been to see how she is.. and i've been reflecting..
well.. i wasnt a very good boyfriend. or ex for that matter.. said plenty of hurtful things dat i didnt mean.... i know i wasnt really that fantastic or anythign.. and she could have been the one.
we did have lots of special stuffs that i'll keep dear to my heart always.
i'm moving on already.. i'll smile if i see you. maybe even say hi. but yeah i really wish u all the best. in every single thing u do. and she really treated me well. i seriously doubt wat u guys say bout her playing with me. cause the stuffs she did for me. were things i doubt she would even think of doing for any of her exes.. so guys dun try to convince me that shes bad (: please. cause shes not. really. i havent been the best bf in the world ok.. i did say hurtful stuffs too.. so pls. if anything at all help me to move on and be happy. dont let me be all bitchy or anything. she can be with anybody she wants. just as long as she is happy.
now when i look back. i ponder.. maybe.. i didnt love her.. as much as she loved me. i could have loved her more.. i was being preety much jealous.. and selfish. not the type of love that i would have given. i held on a tad too tight.. maybe alot more than den alittle. but at least i've grown. at least i've learnt my mistakes. i really wish i could go back for a second time. and try again. i bet it would be better. but i dont want to hurt you anymore. or put you through this things again.
you put aside all your quirks for me. yet i couldnt see. you thought twice three times before you said things to me. and i blasted away with no regard.. and above all. you were always really truely there for me. even after we broke up. i never could appreaciate it.. but i'll start now. its too late. but better late than never. i really thank you for all you've done for me. and please.. please forgive this weak little boy for all the nonsence hes given you. i really hope you see this. or i wished i had the guts to tell this to you.. i did love you. maybe not true love. i'm so sorry. i really wish i could make it all up to you. i'm sorry.. sorry for all the bad stuff i did. forgive me.
easter.. new life, new beginings. i hope we can paint a new picture.
and it was the greatest story ever told.
i'll never forget your love. ^^
thank you
with all my love. i'm letting go. please find someone better.
good bye, and good luck
love kills slowly 2:24 pm
