Sunday, September 24, 2006
please. when u read all that. please note.. i wrote those not in the most calm state of mind.
i'm really really sorry. i'm so sorry it hurt you. i didnt mean it.
we're still friends yah?
i'll still need a friend like you. you still mean alot to me.
even more than i realised..
well.. erm i dreamt of you last night.
it wasnt a pleasent dream.
but it told me you meant alot to me.
and that all the time i said for you to go away..
that would have killed me. cause i didnt know at that point if you had left.
how much more hurt i would have been.
i'm terribly sorry.
last night when you were online.
half of me wanted to say hi. but i didnt have the guts too.
but all thats going to change.
i'm going to be a great friend and brother (:
love is about wanting the one you love be free and happy in her endeavours.
it may suck now that you're gone.
i may think terrible thoughts.
but when all the rain has felled.
and all the clouds have gone.
a rainbow forms.
a sign of love.
when the curtains of dark clouds are lifted.
a beautiful meadow is left behind.
where misery is washed away.
where children come out and play.
everything seems brighter.
happier
the flowers are fresh.
the air is fresh.
and life goes on.
you still play an important part in my life.
whther i know it or not.
so please forgive me.
i love you.
i'll be your friend.
love kills slowly 4:32 pm
