Saturday, September 03, 2011
insecurities.
i must stay strong. i dont need to save u i dont need to do anything. i just need to learn to be strong and stay by your side. i hope this works out. i hope that i can make the right decisoins. say the right things. do the right things. i want this to work out. but i keep thinking of all the things that will go wrong. i know in a moment this feelings will past. i know that things will be alright. but right here right now. i cant stop thinking.. i guess it is me who needs to learn to grow up. i need to learn to deal with relationships better. i need to know what i really want and what i really feel deep down. i need to learn to be a stronger man for my future. i need God to have a bigger center in my heart. i need to be more mature. i need more. maybe after all these relationships i havent really learnt anything afterall. i havent learn to grow up. i feel like im still that same immature jealous childish shallow person i always have been. i need to grow up. i want to be more independent. i need to stop relying on people. i need to be stronger in my emotions. i need to stop being an open book. i need to stop being so vulnerable. looking for pity and handouts. i need to be stronger. i need to be stronger not for people but for myself. i need to be a better man for my family. dad do you ever feel like you're not enough? like you arent sufficient enough for us? i feel so insecure. i want to be strong i want to be a head of my household. of my body of my life of my relationships. i need to be a better man. and i want to be that great man for myself my family my future. and for you.
i need to grow up.. more...
love kills slowly 12:14 am
