why did you do this to yourself. you were alright den you did this. i'm sorry its myfault for not replying you. i was still thinking you would understand taht i'm stuck in the damn army and i was busy packing. i was still thinking maybe i should just forget it. and reply you.. sorry.
i was with you at the hospital. everyday. every moment. and everytime i cry when you're not looking. i cry cause you're hurting. cause you push me away. you kept asking me to go away. but i'll never leave. now just get better. i hope you dont read this.
i'm just doing this as a reminder of my life. i'll save it and not post it.. not now.
i love you. but my love for you grew. now i love you so much taht i just want to protect you. i dont need you to be mine anymore. i just need you to get better.
i'm so tired so drained. why cant somebody save me. dont lie to me. and just do what you said you will. bring me out. hug me. why say you will when you cant/wont.
at times we almost kissed. at times we almost hugged. but everytime i see you hurt i die a little inside. i dont want any of you to worry. not your family. not mine. i just nwant to see you get better.
kill my heart before it kills me. i cant keep loving every girl every dame every lady this way. its too painful. too tiring. too exhausting..
i love you i really do/did. now i dont know what to do. i'm lost. it almost feels like i've been taking care of you every day. and now without it i dont know what to do.
is there anything for me.. is there?
i wasnt in this for your love.
i was in this for you to live. for you to survive.
for you to love again.
dosent have to be me now.. just needs to be somebody who treasures you.
please be strong. i dont know what to say.
just get better.
i cant live if i knew something would happen to you cause i wasnt strong enough to be there for you. to save you. please get better.. i love you my sweet.
take care of your heart.. your mind.. your soul.. your body.
